as i said before, this summer was lovely. it was crazy and it was busy and it was lovely. in spite of all the busy-ness, i feel like we've had a lot of time to just be. sometimes i have a hard time being content with where i am. even though i may think that i'm moving so slowly as far as big life changes, not jumping into things (or even in small changes and accomplishments), i am always thinking about the next thing. the next project, the next move, the next thing to add to the never-ending to-do list. and while this hasn't changed, i feel that the older i get, and the more i just live my life, as busy as it may be and no matter how much i think i never have time for all the things i want to do, i realize that, damn...i have a pretty good life. i have so much to be happy about. and i have so much time to do all the things i want to do. i just need to take a deep breath, and remind myself that they don't all have to happen right now.
i will always have my frustrations, my moments (well, more than moments if i'm going to be honest) of feeling completely overwhelmed. and there will always be more to do, more projects, more errands, more food to cook and more sweaters to knit and gardens to plant and rooms to clean and dogs to walk and laundry to fold and work to do and [sigh]
but the truth is, all in all...life is pretty damn good right now. we will get to where we want to be. dow what we want to do. and we will be happy. and that feels good.
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