ethan on polaroid

we have been settling in more and more as the days go by. i think i'll say this every day for the rest of his life, but i can't believe more than two weeks have already gone by since he was born. i am already finding myself nostalgic for his first days of life. and yet, sometimes i get a little sad that it's never going to be just me and jared again (this was a feeling i had during the last days of my pregnancy too).

but mostly, i just look at him and my heart explodes and i'm filled with a kind of love i never knew existed. and jared too. i didn't think i could love him more, but here we are. heart exploding.

i have been hoarding my stash of polaroid film and now i want to blow it all on his beautiful face. his chompy little arms and legs. his adorable mouth and oh, when his eyes are wide open taking in the world. i want to savor all of it.